Don't Read This

I said...don't read this...
you're still reading it...
...and still reading...
...if you happen to reach this part, then just keep on reading...
...I promised myself not to write anything on my blog anymore...

...but here I go again...

this blog becomes my habitual outlet and it becomes more convenient than having to talk it out...
...yesterday was my laziest day...I spent the whole day watching Grey's Anatomy...up to series 3...and then i realized we get glued to something which conveys our own frustrations, joys, and reflections....the reason i could not hit the stop button of the dvd player come meal time...

...exactly the reason why surprisingly, people get to read your blogs...

...my friends comment so much about my blog entries when we have the chance to meet and catch up on each other...it feels a little intruding sometimes, but i bump my head and realize blogs are intended for intrusion...and it gets to be intruded in the world wide web...

...so then again...my blog entries are not the whole of me...it's more of, the dark side of me which i choose not to show to friends, strangers, or clients in front of me...

...til my keyboard refuses to tap when i hit its keys, i might cease not to type words which might not sound pleasant when said through my mouth...

..keep reading, intruders!

...Grey's Anatomy anyone?

Courage Knows No Uncertainties

A brief talk with my uncle-in-law made me realize how much courage I have within me to be able to make quick decisions in my life.

But it also made me realize how coward I have been for quite a lengthy time...for not doing what I really want to do.

i begin to ponder on so many decisions i have made in the past and ultimately it all boils down to very important factors...MONEY over HAPPINESS or HAPPINESS over MONEy...

having both is a bit impossible...

One can never be able to serve 2 masters at a time...

...SO then, I must choose...
...and I guess, the best choice would still be the latter...

...it has been a tiring journey...pleasing everybody eventually gets tiresome...

time has run out.

i guess it is about time for me to do otherwise

When Your Boss Becomes Difficult

I had a very hard day on the job site yesterday...And for the longest time since I had my lowest point...it is seemed like i was dragged down to that point once again..

People seem to tread life like travelling in a sinusidal wave...and it puzzles me why no matter how hard you try...things seem to fall apart at a certain point in that journey...

What really bothers me right now is beyond simple understanding....

When everyone is so busy celebrating the Sinulog festiva in our Cityl...here I am sulking for hours and crying buckets of tears...

YES INDEED...I know problems seem to kick your butt all the time...A painful sign that you are alive...coz you can still feel pain...

Just tonight, I happen to open an email from a friend...
A Nepalese friend I met in Hongkong who works for a traveller's lounge at the hongkong international airport...SANJAY...somebody who's miles away...and who barely knows me....just touched me like an angel....

I seemed to forget about the best
person to call. And yes, Sanjay you are right...JESUS SHOULD TAKE MY WHEEL....

absurd me...How could I ever forget...and indeed, i cried so much tears....
how can i ever forget....that only JESUS knows how to heal...