Too YOUNG to be OLD

all of a sudden, i feel a tinge of LONELINESS..
...Loneliness in a far deeper sense...far from the ordinary loneliness of being left by a loved one...or the common pain of being literally ALONE...

...am really out of words...

for once in my entire lifetime, I suddenly feel so YOUNG to be OLD...
...coz while people my age are busy finding themselves...starting their own families...finding a way to leave the country by any means...pencil pushing for master's degree, among other mid TWENTY-something's concerns, here I am literally in a state of BUSYness...

Maybe am old enough to start a business...but I might be too young to handle it with composure...let's just say, TOO YOUNG to be OLD...

It is a state of LIMBO...i cannot categorize myself as SUCCESSFUL...nor would I say that I am a FAILURE... not yet there...but might be getting somewhere...

HOPEFUL...but LONELY...
...coz it seems no one could understand...not people my age..not people older...

and so I toss and turn on one of my many sleepless nights...brainstorming even in my dreams...with no one to talk to...coz it seems not so many would understand my concerns...MATTERS which are TOO MATURE for my age...TOO LIGHT for the elders...

...definitely the PRICE of taking the ROAD less traveled...of trying to make new PATHS...

How Old AM I then..
...the figures I AM sure...
...but my burdens I AM NOT...
Coz, yes maybe: am just TOO YOUNG to be OLD....