marriage...and my being allergic to it

my family is quite a mess...
...my parents had a melodramatic separation when i was 16 years old...

i practically spent my college life sulking about my parents' problematic marriage...and i hated my father when i learned he had a mistress...

...quite a normal story these days...

a decade has passed...and it seems like i have forgotten all the pains it caused me. i get to see his mistress every single day...and it does not bother me the way it used to cause my heart to break...nor does it burn my heart anymore to see my half siblings...2 innocent kids brought out to this world out of wedlock...a boy and a girl.

brilliant....so my family is quite extraordinary...

i live with my mother...and she is LEGALLY SEPARATED from my father...annullment is on its way...and makes me think...

IS MARRIAGE essential?
should i worry about not getting married at all since everyone SHOULD get married to conform to our society?

On the other hand, isn't marriage just a technical way of protecting one's assets...in case a man and a woman gets fed up with each other after decades of being together.
...or a binding agreement that begets a man to a woman's offsprings...

Simply put...marriage can be a relief when evrything's in top shape....but can be a pain in the ass when goes haywire.

IS there any place in the world which makes a marriage contract renewable after a certain span of time? in such way, it would be easy to dispose of your husband once you get tired of him...and alas, for all the POLYGAMOUS men out there, it's such a joy for you can right away cease to renew with your current wife if you happen to fall in love with another woman while still in your "CURRENT CONTRACT"...

but meanwhile, as the Philippine Jurisprudence does not have this provision yet (and I really hope there will be soon...), it is then mandatory for each and everyone to think a hundred million times whether or not you and your current partner are compatible in so many significant ways before you tie the knot. The only constant thing is CHANGE...and your loving girlfriend/boyfriend today might be your worst nightmare sooner or later.

But is MARRIAGE ABOLUTE for every relationship there is?
For Richer or for Poorer, 'til the absence of a renewed marriage contract do us part.

when tiny bits strike

Allergic Rhinitis: This condition occurs when the body’s immune system over-responds to specific, non-infectious particles such as plant pollens, molds, dust mites, animal hair, industrial chemicals (including tobacco smoke), foods, medicines, and insect venom. During an allergic attack, antibodies, primarily immunoglobin E (IgE), attach to mast cells (cells that release histamine) in the lungs, skin, and mucous membranes. Once IgE connects with the mast cells, a number of chemicals are released. One of the chemicals, histamine, opens the blood vessels and causes skin redness and swollen membranes. When this occurs in the nose, sneezing and congestion are the result.

Too bad i had to stay in bed for 2 days now coz of a very bad headache, runny nose and cough that's not developing...

i don't often get sick...but once rhinitis hits me, am helpless and stay in bed for days...

the spirit of Chirstmas compelled me to fix our big tree and the dust mites in the tree i guess would be the culprit of this...at around 2 pm last Monday, i had nothing to do and decided to fix the tree which was very very dusty!!! my nose felt funny and itchy but ignored it...until i found it very uneasy to sleep that night...

...but i can recall myself removing mites from Elmo, our 4-year old Doberman, that same day...and i can remember he was so weak because of cough... could it be that he transmitted his "cough virus" to me?

When you slowly run out of tangible friends....

A recent trip to Manila made me realize how few friends I have who are still in the Philippines...
For whatever reasons they have for flying and seeking better employment abroad all boils down to two reasons: money and better opportunities....and can be simplified into one: MONEY.

I never realized turning 26 also means realizing your friends are preoccupied with too many things...may it be their careers, married life, business, or what have they...it makes it too difficuklt to organize get together...and that's wherever you are...obviously, im not getting any younger...and I hate to admit that this is one of the most obvious signs that age is irreversible.

Gone are the days of being able to get together by a single text brigade to your friends...Coz regardless if technology is getting more sophisticated and your message might come across boarders in a blink of an eye, it seems useless as the people you intend to invite are somewhere on the other side of the planet...U.S., dubai, Singapore, China...and so, im still counting of the others who might leave again in the next few months.

Though not everybody have left, the one's who chose to stay are also preoccupied...and it works for me to get busy all the time...otherwise, loneliness would strike me from nowhere...

So here i am saying hi to all of my buddies....wherever you are, i extend my warm hug, and let's toast to all our endeavors...cherries on top of it! INUMAN NA!!! isang san mig light please...

i found tranquility some place nobody can see

stress is a condition or feeling experienced when a person perceives that “demands exceed the personal and social resources the individual is able to mobilize.”

It has been ages since i last made an entry to this blog...
i never realized it has been such a long time since then until i had difficulty accessing my account!
i had to undergo enormous loops of password reset procedures before i had the chance to enter this blog! whew! it was one of the greatest challenges on my long term memory...another proof of my persistence...

My last entry was November 1, 2005 to be exact and it is exactly November 7, 2006 today....it has been a year and 6 days...

and what have i been doing since then?

there has been a lot of things that happened in that span of time...

I have left Manila for good and went back to my less stressful hometown Cebu City...
I have been preoccupied with a lot of things...and chose to get preoccupied to forget about all the pains i have been through the pst year. 2005 was quite a rough year for me in all aspects... it was the year when i got robbed off of everything i wanted and needed in life...sob sob sob...and i cried for so many nights about all the losses i had...

but LO! here i am , alive and kicking again!

when you hit the floor so hard, it is amazing to note that you bounce back so high right away! I took this cliche for granted until i experienced tremendous returns after i cried so hard for months...

This year is relatively better...and indeed good things happen to those who learn to forget and wait...

people who spend time collating quotations from people we don't even though now sit a good seat on my pedestal...for only after a series of downfall have i realized all those sayings make sense...harharhar...i make a good laugh at myself for crying so hard...but im elated to having been able to recover

...and to this, i make my own conclusions:

• If you trust yourself you can stand to be loyal for a long term realtionship, better think twice if you partner can...coz normally, men are weak creatures who are easy to succumb to temptation...
• that no matter how good you are in anything, politics will always get in the way for you to reach the TOP...so it is an absolute thing to LEARN how to be a KISS ASS while you are still in school...you'll find it very handy in the workplace...
• that no matter how much you hate your parents for not being perfect, you'll soon realize you have the perfect ones when you don't have anyone to run to...
• that your siblings are your bestfriends when you turn 20 somethings...after all, they are the only ones who offer you loans without any interest...
• that STRESS is mainly caused by internal pressure! contrary to the belief that stress is caused by people or situations around you...STRESS clings to people who lets it affect them...
• the body is a reflection of your thoughts...so clear up your mind and you'll see your whole self glowing.

and with these thoughts, I come at peace with myself...i have made a decision to reinvent myself...and that i will kill STRESS before it hits me!

I started a good plan for 2006...
-to travel to 6 countries from the east and 3 from the west...
unfortunately, i fell short of my plan...but as soon as im in tip top shape, i will be kickin some ass!

a message to everyone:
if anyone has plans to go with me travelling, buzz me right away and i'll come running!